I am here in this vacuum
of dreams and fears
I was happy first
excited, dumbfounded
and then I'll grow
silent, jaded, deaf
What am I
no one understand
I am trying to lay out
what I have in mind
but no one seems to mind
no one seems to add a second glance
I need a second chance
to start over
to be unknown first
then known the other
but--
I am hearing voices
they tell me things
not to kill-- no
just information
and they add up
until my brain races to keep up
I am having vivid dreams
of which I should have written
for they are good pieces of story
unique, alive, carefree
I remember them
from months back
I see different faces
Of people I do not know
They guide me to other places
I know I have not seen
They take me to adventures
Far beyond memory
Such tales woven--
so clearly
I closed my eyes
it was there still
so clearly
ever so clearly
I hope I can shed some light
to all this--
for I cannot fight a fight
blind.